busy days ahead

I started my training last Monday. It was fun! We had wonderful trainers Neil and Kenosha. Neil is British and Kenosha is American. They were both patient and kind. I made new friends.

There's so many things I wanna write but there is something holding it back. I was kind of depressed last night. I know I shouldn't feel like this. But why did I felt a pinch in my heart when he told me about the status of his love life. I like the way we are. Friends and no strings attached. Actually he calls me best friend. I love it like this. When he told me about mb I was surprised and sad. There are things that I can't do anymore. What? Well, first of all I can't hang out to his place whenever I like, just like before. Yes, we are not doing anything wrong. But I am still a girl. I know how it feels when someone special to me is entertaining girl friends to his home and staying longer than a day. How would you take that if you were the gf? So even if he said it was ok. That I can still go there and spend time with him I probably won't.

Come to think of it. There are really reasons why things happen. I moved to Alabang and shared an apartment with my former office mate. Maybe the reason behind it is this. I'll be having good times with my good friends/office mates because a friend will be busy with his own life by now. I'll be happy for him anyway. It is unexpected that's why I am feeling this way. Do I sound trying to convince myself? Well, until now I still cannot pretend.